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❝  The most pathetic thing about me
is that I would come crawling back
to you in a heartbeat if you asked me to
and it sucks that I don’t even own
my will anymore because when I gave
everything to you, I left nothing behind
and now you have the keys to the beating
that keeps me alive but with a turn
you could break me and I don’t know why
God forgot to give me an emergency override.
-I should have checked the emergency brakes before I gave you the keys (via ink-trails)
❝  I heard that you’ve found someone with eyes brighter than mine. I’ve learned that you’re in love again. Your bestfriend told me that you write her love letters and that they sounds a whole lot like mine. I heard that she’s careless and I know that’s what you like about her, she doesn’t care that you call her past midnight and she doesn’t care that you were mine before you were ever hers. I know she tastes my name somewhere and I know that when she pulls on your shirt, you remember me. I hope you’re happy, I hope her laughter makes you forget mine. I hope you forget that I loved you, I hope I forget that too.


you’re probably going to dance with another girl who will taste like fresh picked strawberries and smell like flowers blossom in her hair
and you’re probably going to choke down 5 shots of straight vodka and get the thought of me out of your head and focus on the girl dancing with you who wants to be your apple pie but you can’t see the diamonds in her eyes because you’re staring at the ones hanging around her neck and you can’t feel her pull you in closer because she’s reaching farther behind your head of dark hair and tapping shoulders of random guys she’s never even met
and when this happens I hope you run to the dingy bathroom and splash your face with dirty water and vomit up the words you never said because while you’re out drowning your heart in things I shouldn’t care about I’m here looking at the moon whispering how much I fucking love you
and if you take her home I swear to God the moonlight will keep you awake no matter what time it is and you’ll watch it shine across your bedroom floor where we danced and laughed and I almost told you that you are my night sky
and I hope the light catches your attention more than the sight of her would and I hope when you wake up all you remember is that roses are my favourite scented flower and you can’t escape the light of the moon






I should’ve taken more pills that night. I shouldn’t have woken up.

If you’re reading this, please don’t kill yourself. I love you & I care.



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